Piece of Meat
Part 2
Admzad

L. Doggie is so sad and hungry, haven't eaten for days!
R. Steak is sizzling on the grill, but not for the Doggie!

... he began to think dispassionately about the idea of revolution that had driven
him for so much of his adult life. And he arrived at an understanding - especially
painful in the circumstances - of why he had been wrong, and 'why revolutions are
doomed to fail'.

'I thought that people are much too complicated in their nature to be led in a
simple fashion, with a few slogans. Inside ourselves we are full of greed, love,
fear, hatred. We all carry our own history & past. So when we come to make a
revolution we bring with ourselves all these factors in different proportions.
Revolutions have always disregarded all these individual differences.'

So, in the jail, he had rejected the idea of revolution. It had been his great
support, the equivalent of religion... He was like a man in whom something had
been extinguished. He was a big man from the north-west. It was possible to
imagine him full of fire.

Cho Miran Mabashad! [After Death (post 1978), Empty Patriotic Songs in Exile!]
Graphic Design by Admzad

--<
full of hormone & anger & resentment & blaming-the-ruler.
This is the case no matter who is the ruler!
It's the culture, including the Shiit Islam, that has not 'delivered' & causes
irritation & anger in people.
>--

Now he was strangely pacific; his suffering, old & new, was always there to make
him watch his moods, consider his words, & make him take the edge off passion or
complaint. He was trying now - exposed as he was, & liable to be picked up again
at any time - to make a cause out of his privacy, his family life; though
day-to-day life was hard, & in the economic mess of revolutionary Iran, & with
the decline of the currency, the value of his earnings as a teacher went down & down.

--<
Interesting.

Could it be a Powerful-cruel-Ruler was a major factor in his backing-out? If the
communists could've taken the power, they would've & had been even more cruel to
the cattle.

He had become ane-qollaabi around 1970. There was a man in his town, who'd come
out of prison, & he used to go & talk to him. He was 38 & a close friend of a
famous writer who was drowned in the river. He told him many things about injustice
& how he'd eliminate it. He gave Paydar books by Russian writers. Paydar was very
moved by Gorky's book called the mother. Hell, even I was stupid enough to have
been moved by it, many young people used to talk about it, without knowing Gorky
had sided with KK Lenin & what monsters Bolsheviks were.

Paydar had finished school, worked in bazaar, & wrote short stories about poverty
& people suffering.

His father & mother hadn't been religious. His mother believed in God, but she
believed more in humans. His mother told him "if you ask a little child not to do
a bad thing, & reward him if he doesn't do that, it is OK, because he's a child.
But if he grows up & understands himself, & you still reward him for the good things
he has done, you are insulting him."

Very interesting mother.

In the late 70s, Paydar goes to UK to do a higher degree, with his wife & 2 kids.

Father died when he was 12, mother had to work stitching clothes to support her
kids, yet he was able to go to UK to study & take his wife & kids with him?! Not
only such things could happen in the old regime to a 'revolutionary communist'
who was against the regime, US$ was 7 tomans & economy was booming. Yet the idiots
went on strikes to bring the regime down in the biggest goh-khori of their lives.
But the idiot doesn't admit that he owes so much to the old regime; in fact, if it
wasn't for the old regime, he could've been a stupid mullah or amaleh. Hell, even
I owe the old regime for not being a mullah.

Allah-ho-ahmaq!
>--

And - though he didn't see it then, & didn't say it now - this course of study
in England was a tribute to the Shah's Iran. It spoke of the mobility that had
come to people like Paydar, born in poor & backward areas; it spoke of the economy
that had kept him in work, & given him savings; & it spoke of the strength &
purchasing power of the currency.

--<
It's interesting that even an outsider, like the author, sees very clearly how
much the old regime did for Miran, but the stampeding cattle have never tried
to admit it. Even though it's been proven that the old regime was not 'cruel',
compared to all its opposition groups, & it did so much for the damn country,
the cattle still hide behind their EGO, telling lies to justify their actions
& stupidity & Goh-khori.

Hell, the mullahs killed any communists (or anybody else who was against them)
they could find, yet the old regime not only educated the idiots, but they even
could go to US/UK to study. Yet, the Goh bully traitors even protested against
the regime in US/UK.

Yet, to this day, they still go on talking about how Savak had put 100 of them
in jail; but never mention how the mullahs tortured & raped & killed more than
100,000 of them, or alllllll of them if they could.

Even worst still, every Goh opposition group of 78, would've been far worst in
their killing & torture to force the cattle into total submission, yet, they still
talk about Savak.
>--

"In England I looked at things with a sort of prejudgment. I thought they were
capitalists. I was very cynical. I thought they were responsible for our miseries
in history. Which of course to some extent they were. ... I closed my eyes to
lots of things. Those revolutionaries who thought like me did the same thing."

--<
So he is basically saying:
he was too stupid, too young, too cocky, too bully, too domineering, too immature,
too naive, yet he wanted the old regime to hand over the power to him & let this
savage idiot to rule, because he had read Gorky's mother & was 'upset' that he
saw his mother 'suffer'?!!!

All this when the old regime had top educated people like aamuzgaar & hoveydaa
in them & had done a good job with education & economy in a country full of savage
cattle.

To top things off, not only the savage cattle even claim to have 'voted' for the
mullahs to take over the power to destroy their education & treat them far worst
than the old regime ever did. But, the same very cattle who claim to have been
ane-qollaabi, put up with the filthy corrupt mullahs for over 25 years, while
constantly crying & mourning for their destroyed lives & hopes, tortured-killed
children, & damn country.

But they still talk about 'Savak'. Obviously there is something terribly wrong
with their 'brain'. Perhaps they are suffering from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress
Disorder).

Now, back to the saga.

He claims that in 78, people were on the streets & he 'had to take sides', so he
chose 'to be with people in the streets for freedom & equality'!

Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

And where the F* is that 'freedom & equality' now?
Even the KK Imam said "freedom will lead to prostitution"!

So he took part in demonstration in UK & handed out leaflets to people.
At the time Khomeini was getting popular with the revolution. "We heard about him
quite late in England. I felt the religious people were keeping him secret. He
wasn't there at first, in the revolution. It was on 78 that people started to hear
about him. .. I had to make a difficult decision. I was not a religious person. I
was a Marxist. But Khomeini was a religious man who was heading the revolution. The
only party which side with Khomeini at that time was the Tudeh party. And
automatically I was attracted to that party."

I thought Jendeyeh-melli also sided with that KK.

"I had a lot of misgivings. I'd tell friends, 'we may win the revolution, but
culturally we will go back a 1000 years."

I think this is pure bullshit. This must be his EGO talking, trying to look good
in front of the foreign writer. All the KK vultures were so excited about taking
over the power, that their first goal was to remove the old regime, then they'd
take care of the 'stupid mullahs', because nobody had much respect for the mullahs,
not even Khari-at-i himself or his stupid supporters.

It seems to me he's talking as if he was in charge, which shows the arrogance & the
urge-to-dominate in such people.

But his uneducated & 'suffering' mother had more sense then this UK educated idiot
ever did! She said. "you will never gain anything following these religious people.
We have known them. We've seen them. These are the people who didn't let me learn
reading & writing. A clergyman went to my father's house & said 'you should never
send your daughter to one of these schools. These schools are satanic centers for
women'." This had been in 1925, when she was 7. She never forgave them because she
loved knowledge & books.

I rest my case. Not all Miranian were stupid enough not to have known the real
nature of the KK mullahs. Even some of the uneducated ones knew how filthy the
mullahs were.

It's interesting that he claims to have become ane-qollaabi because he saw his mother
suffer, but his mother who actually did the suffering, didn't seem to carry resentment
or anger. In fact he says "she was the symbol of the real human being. She was loved
by everyone. When she died in the hospital all the nurses & the doctor himself cried.
The reason was, she cared about everyone there." Yes indeed, she didn't let her EGO
run her life, she was not a domineering power-hungry ane-qollaabi, because she cared
about others.

Anyway, he goes back to Miran when Khomeini was in power & found a job as a teacher.
Things started to go bad. He even came into conflict with the Tudeh party!

The friend who gave him the Gorky's book was not 'active' any more. He had taken a
teaching job & still was a teacher. Now Paydar knew that "he was very wise."

Gush, it seems that they were 'active' only when their hormones were high & sobered
up after they became mature & started using their 'brain' for a change.

He wasn't "wise" at all. If he were smart, he'd worked with the old regime to clean
the 'culture' & educate the mass cattle.

Author asked "he didn't advise you?"

"He didn't do that. Maybe he thought I was too young. Maybe he had his own doubts.
Maybe he was ashamed he himself wasn't taking part."

Paydar went to see the friend & said "you were very wise. Why didn't you advise
me?" he said "I myself was not so sure about what I was doing. After the Shah's
regime this was a new regime, & I had no ideas about it, no certainty about it.
I was just living through it."

Didn't these highly educated people know that Khomeini had Kasravi murdered? How
could they agree to a regime change without ensuring it was going to be for the
better? Not to mention this was not just a regime-change, it was a bloody take
over & a civil war & an absolute disaster. These people were not "wise" at all,
& paid a heavy price for their stupidity!

His conflict with Tudeh was over their support for Khomeini. When he objected,
they said that Khomeini was heading a popular movement; since the party believed
in the people, they couldn't be far from the people.

This is very interesting, because the majority of Miranians were nothing but
savage cattle, so these guys are saying it's right for the cattle to stampede
over a working government. In a culture, where even the highly educated people
eventually sober up & grow-up & reject any revolutionary ideas they had.

Masters must just love Miranian culture! They can easily buy a rent-a-crowd cattle
& get them do anything they want, & others will support the rent-a-crowd, even
the educated Miranians, because they are on the side of the pee-pole!

So the KIR goes after him & he goes into hiding. One night he gets a phone call
from the Rev-guards, asking him to go to their headquarters for a few minutes to
answer a few questions. He asked if it was really take a few minutes & was told
'oh, yes, surely not more than an hour'.

This was in 1985, after so many years of killings & torture, which goes to show
how stupid he was! Perhaps he was tired of 'running', but he had a family to support.

Now he starts to think in prison & eventually rejects the idea of revolution.
His mother had died 2 years earlier.

Paydar said, "I devote myself to my teaching work & am more useful to my people
in this way, just trying to educate them. I wish I had thought that right at the
beginning."

So it looks like he's finally sobered up, but wait, he now starts to piss on
himself & his logic.

"But we were in the middle of things, with the dust above us. And the earlier
regime is responsible for what has happened now. They deprived us of freedom &
good education, & enabled these others to come up."

Always ready to blame 'others', it was Shah, then Khomeini, then 'others', then
back to the 'old regime'. It's never 'me'/'we' who had it so good, but was too
stupid & F*ed-up to think/act rationally.

They go out of their ways to use "we" when they want to brag: "we wanted this/that",
"we wanted a revolution". But when they F*-up, they never use "we" to admit, they
will find somebody else to blame.

Gush, for Miran's sake, I really hope that the author is making these things up.
Because if this is what an UK-educated Miranian teacher could say, after such
nightmares & destruction, then Miran is totally F*ed.

But it must be true, because this was in 1995, & 10 years later, Miran is still
totally F*ed.

Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

What a shame, all this pain & suffering & destruction; but what does Miran have
now? More corruption, more pain, more killing, more torture, more K*-keshy, more
poverty, more anger, more hate, more despair, more stupidity, more Goh!

p199----
Next, Author meets Abbas, a 27 war veteran. He had volunteered at 14 to go to war.
He used to go to a 'good' school in Tehran. Mullahs went to his school to brainwash
the kids & he fell for it & ended up in front. He used to 'collect' equipment from
the dead soldiers, which was a 'spiritual' exercise for him.

Before the attack there was a 'goodbye ceremony'. Generally there was a lot of
weeping & wailing. "aay geryeh konid mosalmunaa ... !"

He gets hurt very bad & the doctors give up on him & thought he'd lose his sight.
One day, the authorities wanted to take some of the patients to Shah-Cheraq shrine.
Abbas wanted to go in his wheelchair, but doctor said he wasn't well enough to go.
Abbas shouted & began to quarrel with the doctor, so he went for his 'shafaa'.
Notice how 'anger' & 'shouting' seems to be a feature of the culture. Even patients
would quarrel with their doctor!

Any way, he made a wow: "Allah, I accept whatever you wish, & I like whatever you
like. But I can't tell a lie to you. I need my eyes. If you give me back my eyes,
I will use them to go back to the front."

..... so that I can kill more of my holy Shiit brothers, who are supposed to be your
only real-follower, because Sunni Muslims are not real Muslims .... (these are my
words, he couldn't see the big picture then, that he was killing his holy brothers.)

A few hours a miracle happened & he could 'see'. Allah-ho-Amaq! Luckily not many
people found it, or else, they'd have torn bits of his cloths for keepsakes & magic.
>--

I had heard something like that in 1979 about people who had been shot by the
Shah's police during the demonstrations before the revolution. Even a slight wound
could be fatal, because when a man fell his fellow demonstrators ran to him to
force their hands in the wound in order to stain them with the warm blood of a martyr.

--<
I think this was for a different reason.

So some people were 'killed' by their own holy brothers, not by the gun shot wound.
Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

Well, if mullahs could burn 400 people in a cimena, they wouldn't have a problem to
kill a few more for a 'good cause', to 'save pISs-LAM'. Also, it wasn't "Shah's police",
they were Iranians soldiers/police returning fire from the men, dressed as women, in
the back of the crowd.

This X-pee-ri-ens caused him to 'go deep into himself'. Them he goes to Qom & enrolls
for a 5 year course, which he completes in 3 years. But he found this wasn't what he
was looking for. Not everyone can be a mullahs, least of all, those who seek
'spirituality'!

Then he fell in love with a girl, but her family told him to finish Uni first,
because their daughter was a Uni student. So he studied hard & got his high school
diploma & a place in the Uni.

His father had a been a mechanic, working for a very poor bus company, on low pay.
>--

But the mechanic had educated all his children. One now ran a factory; another was
a professor at the Uni; the youngest was an engineer. So Abbas's family was one of
the success stories of the revolution.

--<
Success, my ass!
Nothing suck-seeds like a parrot without a beak!
If it hadn't been for the old regime, I wouldn't be writing this today,
none of his kids would've had any education. Not even you, yes you the reader,
would be reading this, if you are 'Iranian'. If Mullahs had taken over from the
Qajars, Miran would have been nothing but a public toilet today. No books, no
writers, no Neema, no Furuq, no Shaamlu, no hedaayat, no Kasravi, no film industry,
no Beyzaa'i, no universities, no high schools; only Islamic madrasahs. This is
assuming that the Soviets wouldn't have taken over the damn country.

He claims that his spirituality started with his name, Abbas, which was the name
of the Hussain's cousin. The same Hussain who got himself & 72 of his family &
allies killed in a very stupid way, having been stupidly betrayed by his own
followers who lived in Iraq. Mind all the killings were done by holy Muslims.
Now, how a all-knowing, all-holy, all-Godly 'Imam' could be killed by followers
of his own God, is beyond me! Who says Islam means 'peace'?!

Even as a 6 why o boy, he wanted to carry the flag during Shiit mourning month.

Abbas: anam baraat morabbaas!

I haven't invented this, it is from the 'deep' & 's-pee-ri-chew-all' culture of Miran!

His family had been religious only in an 'ordinary way'. Without the war, he had
finished his studies, he love pure physics.
>--

p208---
And this was interesting to me because it showed how, even within the rigidities
of a revealed faith, a feeling for the spiritual might prompt wonder; & science
& the search fro knowledge would have begun.

--<
Yes indeed!
Some would've then started to see the filth in Qom & Shiit Islam.
A US educated young man went to Qom, but he didn't last there long.

Now, Abbas made short films that had a 'message'.

In the taxi, the author's interpreter said, "you noticed? He didn't mention Khomeini once."

Author had wanted to ask Abbas about some examples of how religious learning didn't
go with spirituality, but his interpreter thought it wasn't a good idea & was dangerous.

Mehrdad, the interpreter, said later that Abbas to him was 'a real hero'.
I completely disagree with this, he was & is a 'victim', not a he-row. Granted,
he was smart enough to see the filth in Qom, but he was 'wasted', he could have
been a brilliant physicist! Too many died in the war or in prisons, who could
have been brilliant people.

Author asked Mehrdad, "whether Abbas & his brothers, the mechanic's sons, wouldn't
have moved forward anyway, even if the revolution hadn't come; & whether the
revolution hadn't really been wasteful of talent.

Well, if a poor woman could manage to send his son to school, on her own without
a husband, & the son could go to UK to study; of course a mechanic would've done better.

Mehrdad said, "people are like ships. When the first ship goes in one direction,
the others follow. It's like a firing squad, when they have to shoot a thief ...
the first shot is the important one. The others just follow. They hear the sound
& they pull the trigger. I've seen it many times. ...
And at the university. A professor is teaching badly, is known to be a poor
professor. Nobody does anything. But one day some student gets up & objects to
something, & then there is chaos. Everybody starts objecting to the teacher."

But in Miran, pee-pole are more like sheep, not ships.
As for the bad professor, it is the Palang-syndrome again!
I'd say most students, from 'good' families, would be polite to their teachers;
but those from poor/dehaati families would be more willing to shout & get angry
& show-off, especially if there any girls around.

Merhrdad continues: "That's my feeling about the revolution. My parents attended
4 or 5 demonstrations. But they didn't know why. They didn't know what they were
doing. My father is not brave at all. Now when you ask him he says that he didn't
go to the demonstrations. But I remember it. ... He was innocent - & frightened.
Others had a lot of sin, but he was innocent."

I bet they didn't have a clue & didn't go to the early protests. They waited &
waited, then, once it was proven to them that it was safe to go, they went to
"bebinim cheh khabareh", & so joined the crowd
protesting against the Palang, like Baboons attacking a stuffed Leopard.

He was not innocent at all, he was 'stupid' & paid the price for it.

They had a lot of books in their house, some had pictures, published by the old
regime, about the royal family, it was a prize from school to his sister. Father
tore them up & put them in the rubbish bin, saying "when the revolution comes,
they don't want to see such things in my house."

Classic case of nun-beh-nerkheh-ruz-khori syndrome of Miranians!
The same people who used to have pictures of the old ruler in their houses &
offices, now keep the picture of the new ruler. They used to wear ties, but
replaced them with abaa over night. Their have no principles, but cheating &
lying & deceit. They are not even man enough to admit their mistakes.

Then there is story about 'affections between 2 soldiers', which Miranian found
'moving', because "it is hard to tell a friend about his failing". The story was
about a friend who found a good way of doing it.

Talk about living double-lives, they destroyed their own country, killed &
tortured thousands of their own brothers & countrymen, all because they supposedly
wanted better lives for their own people, because they 'cared'?! They could burn
400 people alive in a cinema, just to blame the other side. Now they go around
blaming each other, talking bullshit about 's-pee-ri-chew-all-ity' & 'friendship'?!

Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

And, now,
bacheh haayeh aziz,
khareh hammaali mikard,
mollaaheh raqqaasi mikard!

Allow me to introduce you to the biggest Miranian clown of the century, a mullah
who needs no introduction, the one & only Khareh-Khaali!

Yes, you guessed it, author now goes back to holy Qom to revisit the killer judge,
khalkhali (khr).

Author had gone to Qom in 79 to see khr, when he was a star, a hanging judge. There
was noting secret about the killings, in fact, some KIR official was keeping count.
Eventually, the counting stopped, but the killing didn't. In the early days people
were photographed before they were killed, & the pictures were on sale in the
streets. Not bad, hah?!

It just goes to show the 'compassion' & 'kindness' that exists in the culture of
Miran, specially in the Goh religion of Shiit Islam!

Khr was open to press & used to give many boastful interviews, bragging how he
had killed Hoveyda. To me this is another proof of how savage & Goh the culture
in Miran is, where a Goh uneducated savage clown mullah could kill an educated
man like Hoveyda, who had served the country so well for so many years.

He found Khr's sitting on the floor, surrounded by his guards, some Miranians
admirers, & an African couple. He was bald & very short, a clerical gnome, &
perhaps because of his small size, he liked to clown.
>--

p214---
His jokes were about executions, & then his court threw themselves about with
laughter. He also liked - & this mannerism might have come with his hanging
duties - abruptly to stop clowning & for no reason to frown & grow severe.

He was from Azerbaijan in the north-west. He said he was the son of a farmer
& as a boy he had been a shepherd. So, going by what Ali had said, khr would've
been just the kind of village boy for whom, 50 years or so before, the theological
schools had offered the only way out: a room, food, & a little money. But,
khalkhalli had almost nothing to say about his early life. All he said, with a choking,
wide-throated laugh, was that he knew how to cut off a sheep's head; & this was
like another joke about executions, something for his little court. Perhaps,
because he had never learned how to process or meditate on his experience,
never having read widely enough or thought hard enough, his experience had simply
gone by, & much of it had even been lost to him. Perhaps the 35 years (as he said)
of theological studies in Qum had rotted his mind, pushed reality far away, given
him only rules, & now with the revolution sunk him in righteousness & vanity. He
was interested only in the present, his authority & reputation, & in his
executioner's work.

--<
I think author is too kind & perhaps doesn't know Miranians that well.
This was a typical MJ KK savage dehaati, with no brain what so ever.
The real question is what kind of culture would allow such a Goh kill Hoveyda
& become a Judge, to kill many more of the educated people!

OK, Masters wanted to remove the old regime completely, but a smart culture
would not have allowed it.
>--

He said, "the mullahs are going to rule now. We are going to have 10 thousand
years of Islamic Republic. The Marxist are going to go on with their Lenin. We
are going to go on in the way of Khomeini."

revolution as blood & punishment, religion as blood & punishment: in Khomeini's
mind the 2 ideas seemed to have become one.

And, in fact, that double idea, of blood, fitted revolutionary Iran. Behzad,
my interpreter, was a communist, & the son of a communist father. Behzad was 24;
with all his Iranian graces, his scientific education, & his social ambitions,
he had his own dream of blood. His hero was Stalin. Behzad said, 'what he did
in Russia we have to do in Iran. We too have to do a lot of killing. A lot.'

--<
But now, in 1995, author is discouraged from going to see khr. 'It would be too
political a thing to do, too intrusive & might be trouble. Khr may not want to
see him, he's been cast aside by the revolution, & he has heart trouble.'

I must tell you, when the surgeons opened his chest, they were shocked, because
there was no heart. His big intestine had grown & moved into his chest, shrunk
his heart, killed it, & replaced it.

Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

But he asked around & was given an interview.
He was to go some library in Qom, meet a talebeh, who'd take him to khr.

They go to Qom & after a lot searching finally find the Marashi library.
It wasn't just a library, it also had ayatollah Marashi's tomb. It was a kind
of aluminium cage with a green cover, like a 'big parrot cage'.

They saw some devout people in great need, & some very ill people, who were
leaning quietly against the cage, asking for 'morid'. Hell, Qom is supposed
to have a saint in it, but pee-pole go & beg to anybody's grave. They are not
choosy at all, they are so addicted to begging & crying & wailing, that the grave
of any khar/olaaq/gaav would do the job. Just like a drug addict needing his daily
fix, it doesn't matter where he shoots his heroin, as long as he gets his fix.

They go to the office, but nobody knew about their meeting with the talebeh or khr.
Then they were taken to the office of the son of the great ayatollah, who was the
guardian & director of his father's shrine & library. He was a big, dramatic man
with a big black beard, sitting in his big & imposing office.

He said he didn't know who they were & didn't know about khr or the talebeh &
started firing of questions: what's your name? Where do you live? How many books
have you written? What kind of books? What agency are you connected with? He didn't
like any of the replies.

This taking-the-upper-hand is a big feature of Middle East, often mixed with
excitement & irritation & anger to raise the profile. It's bargaining & negotiation
technique too. It's also an urge to dominate others. A fat good for nothing Goh
mullah, acting like a KING in a big office. It seems that after so many years of
terror, mullahs are used to command & rule & domination.

Finally Emami, the talebeh, showed up in the library-tomb, with no explanation
why he didn't phone & why he was 1 hour late. He was about 30, wasn't in tunic & robe
& turban, but in trousers & shirt. He said he was entitled to wear the robe & turban
of the talebeh, but didn't like wearing them. He said he knew where khr's house was,
so they left. But it turned out that he didn't absolutely know where the house was,
& asked & asked, but finally they got there & after ringing on 2 wrong doors, they
find the right one. They were very late & khr had been expecting them.

He sees a few pictures of Khr with Khomeini on the wall, Khomeini even laughs
in one of them, the only photo author had seen where the KK laughed. Khr had been
teacher of Khomeini's son & there was a picture of 3 of them together.
>--

Khalkhalli was now out of everything, people said; he'd been pushed aside. The
photographs on the wall were like proof of his power in the old days, his
closeness to the Imam, the leader of the revolution. But in a time to come the
photographs on the wall might say something else: the busy men of the revolution
frowning in the streets, laughing in private.

--<
But mullahs were used to all this frowning in streets & laughing & F*ing in
private. They made money by making people cry, they couldn't walk around laughing
& joking. They were supposed to be holy men mourning for the idiot Hussain, who
walked right into his execution & took his family with him to. If Miranians live
double lives, mullahs live a dozen lives, always have, always will.
>--

He came in now. And it was an entrance. He was barefooted, in simple white, like
a penitent, & he moved very slowly. ... Step by dragging step he came in, very
small, completely bald, baby-faced without his turban, head held down against
his chest, looking up from below his forehead, eyes without mischief now &
seemingly close to tears, as though he wished to dramatise his situation &
needed pity..... But, as in 79, he didn't want to talk about his life. If we
were to go back so far, he said, it would tire him. He had had a heart operation,
a triple bypass.

I asked when he'd become a revolutionary. He said he had always been a revolutionary,
ever since he knew himself; he had always hated kings.

--<
This of course is a lie. Even the KK Khomeini supported monarchy in early days.
>--

It was hard, though, to get him talk concretely; he turned everything into
abstraction. As an ayatollah that was his talent. It pleased him to be baffling
my purpose; & as he talked in his ayatollah's way about reality & fraudulence his
eyes - seemingly so close to tears when he entered - brightened, began to twinkle:
a glimpse there of old mischievousness, with something of the man of 79 showing
through. ...

If Khalkhalli was the hanging judge, Montazeri, as Khomeini's second-in-command,
had sometimes been even more zealous than his master. When Khomeini had said that
the revolution should concentrate on the young, that people over 40 were useless,
Montazeri had gone one stage further. Pensions were useless, he had said: dead
trees should be cut down. People still remembered that.

--<
Wow! The KK Imam was over 70 & said people over 40 were useless! As for 'people
remembering', Miran doesn't have people, it has pee-pole, peeing-poles for
mullahs, who have pee'd on them for centuries. If Miran had people, they would've
never ever let mullahs to pee all over them for over 25 years.
>--

I asked how he assessed the revolution now. He talked for some time, clearly
using a lot of meaningless words, & Mehrdad's short translation of what he said
was that a beginning had been made. How much of a beginning? Thirty per cent. I
saw an opening; & he must have seen what was going to come. Because, before I
could ask about the 70% that still had to be done, he said he was tired. The
eyes that twinkled while he talked or lectured became dead, the expression melancholy,
empty.

--<
Not bad hah? F* the country, kill & rape & torture & hang so many, almost lose a
war & get millions killed, shit on religion & any compassion people ever had, but
now say it was just a beginning?!

Nobody, nobody ever, can be more MJ & KK than a mullah. Communists would've been
more cruel, more direct, but far less MJ & KK & sleazy.

Anyway, they leave & Mehrdad said 'did you see the gun?' Emami said he had many
enemies now. Mehrdad said, 'they are like enemies to each other. The old timers
& the new people'.

They end up going to Emami's flat for something to eat. He had started at a
theological school in Tehran at 16, moved to Qom, & had had spent 14 years there
as a student/talebeh. He had a 2 yo child & had a grant of $50 from his ayatollah.
He earned little extra doing teaching & translation. He wanted to be a propagator
of the faith. He said he wasn't the classical talebeh, the son of the poor family
looking in Qom for free food & lodging, his father was a businessman, they were
middle-class people.

So this idiot must've become talebeh after the goh-khori, & after the killings,
yet he & his family were stupid enough not to 'see' or cruel enough not to 'care',
& get into a shit religion, when its clergy had proven that they were corrupt &
filthy monsters.
>--

Emami had this idea of the vocation; it was sufficient explanation of his 14
years of study; he couldn't step outside of himself to consider his life & motives.
His world had rigid limits. What passed with him for learning was really only a
way of learning the rules. To know the rules was to simplify life, & Emami was
a profoundly obedient man. It was what was required by the faith & the revolution;
every day in the newspapers there was a message like that.

--<
Emami said that there were 25 thousand khar-students in Qom, mainly Indian,
Pakistani, African & a few Europeans. There were also a fair number of Arabs,
but the Arabs made the place dirty! He spoke conversationally & without malice.
Author senses some form of uneasiness in Iranians about Arabs, who had been both
their conquerors & the givers of their religion.

This 25 thousand in interesting to me, author even says Qom is much bigger now.
Emami was brainwashed at 16. it seems to me brainwashing has been far worst in
Miran after KIR took over. Not only they killed or forced many educated people
into exile, they even forced their version of Shiit onto the young. After all,
Miranian Olympic hero shouts abuli-duduli-faz when he lifts heavy weights. Even
author's driver gets upset that he didn't pay at the shrine & that's why his car
broke down; so he forces everyone to go to the shrine so he could pay & do do'aa
for their safe return. All the suffering & pain has also prevented people from
rational thinking & actions.

P230----
Emami lives in a 2 room rented flat at the edge of Qom. The concrete front room was
bare, apart from shelves of books on one wall. The bareness of the room surprised
Mehrada. Bertrand Russel's problems of philosophy was there too! Author asked if
Emami knew of the loss of faith in some of the young. He said it was no secret,
"our enemies know our weakness". He was asked who he meant by the 'enemies', he
said, with gentleness, "the countries of the West; they want to wipe out Islam".
Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

Perhaps, his 'gentleness' is due to the fact that he is not deprived from sex,
being married; unlike many of the young ane-qollaabi-yun of 78.

Here we go again: "enemies nemizaarand", "evil doesn't let us", "evil prevents
them from turning the world into heaven". What kind of idiot would want to become
a mullah at 16, after seeing what the mullahs did, what kind of 'father' would
allow his son become a mullah?! He keeps Russel's book, but follows filthy mullahs?!

Emami said at the last year of the war, he had gone to the front to do Islamic
propaganda for about 2-3 months. He hadn't fought & for him war was a spiritual
experience.

Ey-wallah, I bet those rev-guards who raped women in jails, found it
s-pee-ri-chew-all too, allah-ho-ahmaq!

Emami took them to a theological school. The principal took them around to show
them the special-project rooms. He opened a door & scared the shit out of the
'scholar' who was resting or napping on the floor, with a blanket & a pillow!
Scholar was an elderly his-to-rian, who was writing a book called the political
history of the world. He held the brown blanket around his middle the way the
women in the streets held their black chadors below their chin. He had been doing
work on Zionism & feels that while the Zionists made US their first idol or false
god, they are turning India into their second idol.He said that the British sword
was sharpened in India & that he feared that they will kill Gandhi & exile his
thought again. Allah-ho-Ahmaq!

On the way to Tehran, the driver began to talk about Emami & his trip to the front,
saying that the clerics didn't get the real meaning of the war. Even if he'd gone 6
times to the front, with 2 days going & 2 days coming back, he had to spend 24 days
traveling, & the rest of the time, talking. He said Emami was doing quite well,
living in his own flat. He (driver) was still living with his parents.

No matter how many idiots the mullahs brainwash to 'study' in Qom, their religion
is based on nothing but shit, even the vast majority of the Muslims in the world
don't consider the Shiite as 'Islam'.

P236---
One day, author told Mehrdad that Freydoun was a 'religious man'. This got to
Mehradad, who asked "what do you mean by a religious person? I have a problem
with the word you use. You called Freydoun religious, & he himself thinks he is
pagan." He then explained that "a pagan was someone outside the public religion.
Here we have ways of judging whether a person is religious. The first way is their
appearance. Beards. ..." And he talked about how resting forehead on the cake/tablet
of earth, darkens the color of the skin; and a few other things. He also said that
he wasn't a religious person, never fasted, didn't pray, didn't go to a mosque, &
didn't obey the rules.
>--

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